There are some days that I simply smile and fake it. It is easy enough to put on a show for people. I am not throwing a pity party for myself or anything. I just understand that on those days, it is highly unlikely that I will feel happy about anything. But, that is okay. I understand that how I feel is not a reflection of how I am.
However, I have had a lot of days like that lately. The school year is winding down for everyone in my house but me. Grad school just keeps marching along as I attempt to start planning my summer. Elisa and I have a two week trip to Illinois coming up soon but Grad school will march right on through it as well.
I’m just tired.
Ever feel that way? You know that you should be enjoying life but you feel too tired to do it. I know that I should be looking forward to this trip but I’m tired. I’m not looking forward to the 14-hour drive to get there. I’m not looking forward to having to work on school every single day that I am in Illinois. Yet, here we are.
I know. I know. Get over it right? First world problems, huh?
And, if you were thinking that, you’re right. You are 100% right. This is a pretty small issue in the grand scheme of things. And, in 14 weeks, when school is finally done for me, I will look back at this like it didn’t even happen. It’s not as easy to look past something when you’re in it currently.
However, I even know the answers. I need to get out of the house and exercise for a while. I need to get something to eat. Perhaps I need a nap. I do feel a bit sleepy. However, I need some little successes for today. Maybe finishing up this blog post will be one of them.
See, my go-to reaction is to throw myself a pity party. I sit down in front of the tv and play Minecraft, and, maybe this is okay for a while but something else has to happen eventually. This is not productive time and I need to avoid it. Maybe I need to switch something up in my routine to get myself back on track.
I’ve got five more days before I get on the road to Illinois and I know the trip is going to be great. From now until then, I gotta get some stuff done. I think this stress is simply something that I have thrown on myself.
What about you? What do you do when you start feeling down?
Life is Strange. Live it Well.